Archive for December 3rd, 2009

A New Testament,

given to girl K-6714 by Holt,

K-6714 also received from Holt, a Korean children’s songs book, a Korean-English/English-Korean dictionnary, and a bag to carry them.


Another thing that Holt failed to write on my records is that before sending me to the USA, I was transferred from St. Paul to another home.

The first days at that home, I thought I was already in the USA, because of my limited understanding. I knew the USA was a country of fairy tales where rich “miguk saram” lived, but I didn’t know how far the USA was from Korea. I understood I was not in the USA yet only when I heard that two children were going to the USA.

I stayed in that house longer than other children. (My adoptive mother said there was a “problem” before my arrival. I don’t know what the problem was. Maybe, Holt knew my adopters were not US-citizens, but sent me to them anyway.)

A young woman, who was in charge of preparing me for my departure, gave me the New Testament only after making me read few sentences in the Korean children’s songs book. Another girl of my age didn’t received the New Testament because she couldn’t read.

When the big boss learned that a child has left to USA without a New Testament, she scolded the new employee. She said other gifts were only optional, and the New Testament was a must.

Why was that a New Testament a must, and a children’s songs book an option?

In 2003, Molly Holt told me that at the beginning, they sent children only to Christian families. Then, they decided to send them also to non Christian families. In my case, because they promised to the nuns of St. Paul, they sent me to a Catholic family. She said that they prayed for each child to meet their Lord Jesus.

It means that I didn’t only became a product to sell, I also became a tool for evangelisation.


In the New Testament given to me by Holt, it says:

What therefore God has joined together, let no man put asunder (Matthew 19: 6).

Sorry, mom. I hope you can read this from the heaven (or the hell, or wherever you are now)
God didn’t join us together.
Holt joined us together because you had money. Holt is not God.
Holt separated me and my real family. Holt is a human organisation.

When God joined me to my real family by creating me in my mother’s womb, He didn’t ask them money. When Holt joined me to you, they asked you money.

Holt/Adopters prefer the follwing verses:

Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west. I will say to the north, “Give them up!” and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.” Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth. (Isaiah 43:5-6)

Mom, I know you too loved the above verse. I’ve heard it from you.
But, I have to tell you that I wasn’t your daughter; I was the daugther of Kim Jeong-Jin and Yeo Byung-Rae. You had no daughter. This verse wasn’t intended to you. I became your adopted daugther because you wanted one badly and you had the money to pay to Holt.

If you believe “your children” in this verse means children born in another woman’s womb are yours, it’s equivalent of saying God creates children in the wrong wombs, in the wrong places and the wrong countries; it’s equivalent of saying God makes huge mistakes and you are putting adoption agencies above God.


A verse from Old Testament:
[Evil men] snatch the fatherless from the breast, And take a pledge from the poor (Job 24).

I would replace Evil men by Holt/adoption agencies.


When I could still read Korean at 9-11 years old, I read few verses of the New Testament. Today, when I opened it, I noticed I have underlined one verse in Korean, which is Luke 17:2.

It would be better for him if a millstone were hung round his neck and he were cast into the sea, than that he should cause one of the little ones to sin.

I don’t remember at all what I had thought after reading it and why I had underlined it. Would it be possible that I had thought of my family torn asunder by Evil men?

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