Archive for May 12th, 2013

For me, Mother’s Day is painful just like Christmas.

The older I get more depressing and painful has became Mother’s Day.

I don’t have a mother. I don’t have children.

Not having children is painful. It hurts. As much as adoption and  even more. Having my own children was my only hope in life. I know this pain will never go away just like some of the pains caused by adoption will never go away.  I’ve always wanted children since I was 11 years old. I’ll be 70, 80, 90, 100 years old, and I’ll still be yearning to have children.  I’ll live this life as a punishment for a past life where I must have been bad. I just hope God is not cruel as to let me live a long life.






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I only remember one Mother’s/Father’s Day in Korea.

I was in first grade. The teacher told us that eomeoni-eui-nal (Mother’s Day) would be replaced henceforth by eobeo-i-nal (Parents’ Day), but she made us make a paper flower brooch for moms. My mom had already died before I entered first grade. I missed her every time we made something to offer moms. Now I miss my dad and my mom snd I’m sad I’ve never offered them gift.

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