Type “animal abandonment cruel” on Google search and see the results: animal abandonment is considered to be a barbaric and cruel act.
In the adoption industry, child abandonment is considered to be an act of love.
It was so obvious that I was not the real child of my parents, people often made comments that reminded me I was adopted. I never spoke of my adoption and I never told anyone (except my parents) that my first mother was killed in a bus accident when I was six, so most people assumed I was abandoned at birth. One of their comments was: “Your (birth) mother abandoned you because she loved you”, while others would tell me “Your (adoptive) mother must love you very much.”
My adoptive parents told me: “Your father abandoned you because he loved you.” – “We love you.”
I knew my first mother loved me until her death. I knew my first father loved me, I have lived more than 8 years with him, I knew it until he abandoned me. So when they told me he abandoned me because he loved me, I understood he loved me until I did something bad that deserved the greatest punishment in the world (so I’ll better behave well to be loved by my adoptive parents). Getting older, I couldn’t find any childhood act deserving such punishment, so I made the logical equation love equals abandonment. People who loves me could abandoned me anytime…
Christians told me: “God is your heavenly Father. Your Father will never forsake you because because He loves you.” Some of them also told me my father abandoned me because he loved me. I believed my heavenly Father who loved me so much He already abandoned me.
I belived for long time the message “abandonment is an act of love – abandonment is a gift – abandonment is a selfless act” conveyed by the adoption industry, particularly PAPs and APs. And my life was a complete mess.
I don’t believe such lie anymore.
What I believe now is that parents abandon their children for one the the two reasons:
– because they don’t love them.
– because they love them AND they are given no other choice by the society.
If you believe abandonment is an act of love, I don’t want to be loved by you.